मी अहिल्या होणार गं

आज 31मे 2020 राजमाता अहिल्यादेवी होळकर यांची जयंती. पुण्यश्लोक राजमाता अहिल्यादेवीला माझा प्रणाम. राजमातेचा शिवलिंग हाती असलेला हा एकच फोटो मी लहानपणापासून घरी पाहिलेला. त्यामुळे अहिल्यादेवी ह्या खूप धार्मिक असतील असे मला वाटायचे . तसेच त्यांनी महादेवाची जागोजागी मंदिरे बांधल्याचेहि ऐकून होते. 

पण सविस्तर इतिहास संशोधन केले असता असे लक्षात येते कि अहिल्यादेवी ह्यांच्या व्यक्तिमत्वाला अनेक पैलू आहेत. जशी त्यांची महादेवाच्या ठायी भक्ती होती तशीच त्यांना आपल्या कर्तव्याची जाणीव होती. सर्वधर्म समभाव त्यांच्या हृदयीं होता. म्हणून त्यांच्यावर प्रजेचे प्रेम होते. वेळ पडलि तेव्हा तलवार घेउन रणांगणात उतरल्या . स्त्रियांना शिक्षित केले. त्यांची फौज निर्माण केली. अन बंडखोरांचा बंदोबस्त केला. रामायण किंवा महाभारतात किती युद्ध झाली आणि स्त्रिया विधवा झाल्या पण कोणी विधवा स्त्री सती गेल्याचा कुठेच उल्लेख नाही. अशी उदाहरण देऊन सती प्रथेला शास्त्राचा आधार नाही हे माता अहिल्यादेवीने जनतेला पटवून दिलं. विधवांना पतीची मिळकत स्वतः जवळ ठेवता येईल अशी तरतूद केली. तसेच विधवांना मुलं दत्तक घेता येणं सोपं केलं. त्यांनी पडदा पद्धत कधीच पळाली नाही. त्या रोज जनता दरबार भरवीत असत आणि लोकांची गाऱ्हाणी ऐकण्यास हजर असत. त्यांनी जातपात मानली नाही याचं मोठं उदाहरण म्हणजे त्यांच्या कन्येचा विवाह यशवंतराव फणसे या इतर जातीच्या पण गुणी आणि शूर तरुणाशी करून दिला होता. त्या धर्मपारायण होत्या पण केवळ मंदिरांचा जीर्णोद्धार करूनच त्या थांबल्या नाहीत तर त्यांनी अन्नछत्रे उघडली, विहिरी खोदून त्या चिरेबंद बांधून दिल्या. उन्हाळ्यात राज्यातून प्रवास करणाऱ्यांसाठी पाणपोया, धर्मशाळा, आश्रमशाळा बांधल्या. लोकं त्यांना तत्वज्ञानाची राणी म्हणून ओळखू लागले. 

पुत्र मालेरावांच्या देहावसना नंतर अहिल्यादेवी खऱ्या अर्थाने राज्यकर्ती झाल्या. बाई काय राज्यकारभार करणार? ही दरबारीं मंडळींची अटकळ त्यांनी सपशेल खोटी ठरवली. 

 अशा कर्तव्यदक्ष स्त्रीच्या एका हातात तलवार तर दुसऱ्या हातात पुस्तक किती शोभेल ! कल्पना करा अशा त्यांच्या चित्राची खूप छान वाटते. आणि हो मला वसंतराव सोनोने (संदर्भ - 31/05/2016 सकाळ वृत्तपत्रात त्यांच्या लेख) ह्यांनी लिहिलेल्या दोन ओळी खुपच भावल्या . त्या अशा कि , 

सार्वजनिक गणेशोत्सव सुरु करणाऱ्या टिळकांच्या हातात गणपती किंवा त्यांना गणपतीची पूजा करतांना कोठेही दाखवलेले नाही . परंतु आपल्या तलवारीच्या बळावर व बुद्धिमत्तेच्या जोरावर सुखाचे राज्य टिकवणारी रणरागिणी अहिल्याबाईंना जाणीवपुर्वक दुर्लक्षित ठेवले . त्यांना त्या फोटोच्या चौकटीत जणु कैद केले. असे मला मनापासुन वाटते. 

इंग्रज लेखक लॉरेन्स यांनी राजमाता अहिल्यादेवीची तुलना रशियन राणी कॅथरीन, इंग्लंडची राणी एलिझाबेथ आणि डेन्मार्कची राणी मार्गारेट यांच्याशी केली आहे. ती अशीच नाही ना....

नुकतंच विजया जहागीरदार यांचं 'कर्मयोगिनी' हे पुस्तक वाचलं. अप्रतिम व्यक्तिमत्व राजमाता अहिल्यादेवीचं डोळ्यांसमोर उभं राहिलं. प्रत्येक स्त्रीनं अंगिकारावं असंच. 

राजमाता अहिल्यादेवीच्या चरणी आपल्या आवाजाची श्रद्धा सुमनं अर्पित करावी म्हणून यु ट्यूब वर गाणं शोधलं. तेव्हा अहिल्याफिल्म्स चं, "मी अहिल्या होणार गं !" हे गाणं मिळालं. खूपच सुंदर शब्दांकन. लेखकाचा आणि गायिकेचा उल्लेख नाही तिथं म्हणून इथेही नावं लिहिली नाहीत.

शेवटी दोन ओळी या गाण्याच्या, 

नारी जातीत जन्म घेतला, अहिल्या होणार गं 

पिवळ्या झेंड्याची शपथ घेऊनि भंडारा लेणार गं 

मी अहिल्या होणार गं 

मी अहिल्या होणार गं !

फोटो साभार गुगल वरून 🙏

(नोट : माझा या लेखाद्वारे कोणावर टीका टिपणी करायचा मुळीच उद्देश नाही. तरीही एखाद्याचं मन दुखलं असेल तर क्षमस्व असावे.)

©®अर्चना सोनाग्रे वसतकार

Master of labour studies 

Master diploma of counseling in mental health

archusonagre@gmail.com

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धन्यवाद !

LRR Part 3 The revelation

Love, Revenge & Relationship part 3

The revelation 

Archee :- My parents were so happy that their only child , their daughter was going to marry with the right person. Jivan had impressed them so much by his gentle and caring behaviour. He had won their trust. When my parents went for a holy tour in east Asia & Jivan has came Nagpur for some official training. My parents permitted Jivan to stay at our home with me. He was senior engineer in Mahagenco. His parents also tell us to do marriage shopping. As there were only 2 months remained for our marriage. He used to return home in evening. We used to go for long drive on dad's bike. After dinner he used to return his friends home & speak with me on mobile till I didn't sleep. I asked him to stay with me but he told me that he didn't wish to happen anything between us before marriage. As there was a ritual in which bride has to prove her virginity. This one thing disturbed me many times. But I thought Jivan will look after everything. 

That was not rainy season still there was heavy rain fall Going on. It seems that something unexpected was going to happen. As my so called guilt had made me irresistible I decided to tell about my first choice truth to Jivan. That Saturday night he came to home. I cooked food for him. We did dinner and went on for walk. We discussed so many things for future. I felt good vibrations. So when we return home , I took his hand in my hands and told him that I still have feelings for someone else and the person is none other than Meera's brother,'Ram!' And oh god, in few seconds my whole body shiver .
I couldn't understand what happened next. Blood was running from my nose , ear and mouth. Jivan's hand was so strong. He slapped me hard in rage. I had never seen his this side. He was behaving like a monster. He broke down many things like flower pots, window glasses and tea pot, whatever comes in his hand he just throw it on floor. After some time he left the home saying ,"Never dare to take anyone else's name. You are only mine and I am not going to leave you for anything. Keep in mind. Otherwise you have to live in hell."
I had totally broken. What I had thought and what happened. He, whom my parents chose for me, whom they believed as angel, he slapped me as I was a criminal, he tortured me so much mentally and physically. He behaved like an animal. 

"You know what I am feeling," he hold my neck, "I should do your rape & hang you to the fan. But then I have to find another dumb girl like you. & in this era it's very hard to find a virgin girl." He left my neck & went to his friends. My home had become a dumping zone. The night was turning point of my life.

I had gotton that I was on wrong path with wrong person, who did not bare a small truth of my life. The truth was just a feeling. If he can not give me a little space then how will he share whole life with me. It was just a starting as I wanted to keep him in trust. I just wanted that he knows me, my liking. And what he did. He broke me. He frighten me. I had taken right decision to tell him truth. Because he may kill me if I tell him about Ram after marriage.
 I had made my mind to break engagement with Jivan. My parents had 3 more days to come from Thailand. I hadn't any wish to spoil their trip. So didn't let them know anything. But it was so hard to tolerate all things alone. And I had someone who was an important part of my life. Meera, my best friend. She was both , my brother and sister also. I mate Meera and told her how roughly Jivan behaved with me. She said that she is with me for my decision. She will help me to break the engagement. I was so relaxed. Just waiting for mom and dads arrival.
I had decided not to marry with Jivan for any cost. But I was not aware that the cost is so high that I have to lost my dignity.

Continue.... 

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ती होती आगळी वेगळी

ती होती आगळी वेगळी,
निराळीच होती तिची कथा सगळी.

कळपात चालनं तिला जमत नव्हतं ,
कुणाची हाजी हाजी करनंही तिला येत नव्हतं ,
चुकलेल्याला उगाचच पाठिंबा देणं योग्य वाटत नव्हतं

इतर स्त्रियांसारखं घरात पाऊल थांबत नव्हतं ,
चार चौघित बसून गप्पा मारनं हिच्यासाठी कठीण होतं ,
कधी कधी खूप एकटं वाटे तीला,
आपण आहोत विक्षिप्त असं वाटे तिला,
कारण काय म्हणतील लोक ?
ह्या रोगाची लागण झाली होती तीला.

म्हणून तिनं तिच्या स्वभावा विरुद्ध पाऊल उचललं ,
आजूबाजूच्या चार चौघीत बसू उठू लागली,
त्यांच्यातील एक म्हणून ओळखले जाण्यासाठी धडपडु लागली.
परिणामी तिचं मन दुखावलं गेलं तिच्याही नकळत,
कारण नको तिथं तिचं अस्तित्व ती शोधत होती.
कदाचित ग. दि. मा. ची 'तो राजहंस एक ' कविता तिच्या वाचनात कधी आलिच नव्हती..

Writer, Archana Sonagre.
PGD in Counseling and Mental Health,
Masters of Labour Studies,
M.A. (Public Admin).

मीच माझी गुन्हेगार

मीच माझी गुन्हेगार 

"खूपच त्रास होतोय डॉक्टर. यापेक्षा मरण बरं असं झालंय बघा." चाळीशीत असलेली शारदा डॉक्टरला रडकुंडी येऊन सांगु  लागली.

"मूळव्याध व्याधीच अशी आहे बघ." शारदाला तपासात डॉक्टरीनबाई तिची चौकशी करु लागल्या, "कधी पासून आहे हा त्रास? रक्त कधी पासून पडू लागलं? आधी काही औषधं घेतली का?" 

"साधारण 3-4 वर्ष झालीत त्रास वाढून. रक्त पहिल्यांदा 5-6 वर्षांआधी पडलं होतं. खूपच आग झाली होती."शारदा प्रश्नांची उत्तरं आठवून सांगू लागली. 

"मग डॉक्टरला दाखवलं होतं का?"

"छे ! त्यात काय डॉक्टरला दाखवायचं. असं घरचे म्हणाले मग मलाही वाटलं तिखट खाण्याने त्रास होतोय म्हणून साधं खायला लागली."

"खूपच छान ! अती झाल्याशिवाय आपण बायका स्वतःकडे लक्षच देत नाही आणि मग हे असं भोवते."

शारदा गप्प होती. 

"बरं शी आल्यावर लगेच जायची की थांबून ठेवायची?"

आता शारदाला काय उत्तर द्यावं सुचेना.

"काय झालं? विचारलेल्या प्रश्नाचे उत्तर दे शारदा."

"काय उत्तर देऊ डॉक्टर? लग्न झालं तेव्हापासून आयुष्यात कधी शी आल्याबरोबर मी टॉयलेटमधे शिरले ते आठवतच नाही. सकाळी उठल्यावर सगळ्यांचा नाश्ता, चहा, मग यांचा आणि मुलांचा डबा. एकीकडे प्यायचं पाणी भरून ठेवायची धूम. अशात कधी शी आल्याचं मेंदू मनाला सांगे अन कधी आधी हे करू दे, ते आवरू दे यात ती वेळ निघून जायची समजतच नव्हतं."

"मग शी ला केव्हा जायची?" 

"जेव्हा मोकळा वेळ मिळेल."

"आणि तेव्हा शी खूप कडक येत असेल? हो ना?"

"हो !"

"आताही तसंच करतेस?"

"सवय पडली."

"किती मुलं आहेत?"

"एक मुलगा, एक मुलगी."

"शारदा तुला वाईट नको वाटू देऊ." डॉक्टर उठून शारदा जवळ गेली. तिचा हात हातात घेऊन तिला म्हणाली, "पण हे खूप चुकीचं आहे शारदा. शी थांबवून ठेवणं हे एक मोठ्ठे कारण आहे मुळव्याधीचे. तुझी मुलगी तुझं पाहुन हेच शिकली तर पुढे तिलाही हा असाच त्रास भोगावा लागेल. अगं फक्त चाळीस वर्षांची आहेस तु आणि तुझं ऑपरेशन करावं लागेल असं दिसतंय."

"नाही, ऑपरेशन नको?"

"तुझा मूळव्याध तिसऱ्या स्टेजला आहे. त्यात इंटर्नल आहे. ज्यात ब्लीडींग जास्त होते. म्हणून तु इतकी अशक्त झाली आहेस. मी माझ्या सर्कल मधल्या अनुभवी डॉक्टर्स सोबत तुझी रिपोर्ट दाखवून सांगते ऑपेरेशनबाबत. पण तुलाही तूझ्यासाठी काही करावं लागेल."

"तुम्ही सांगणार ते सगळं करेल."

"पहिलं, सकाळी उठल्यावर कोमट पाणी प्यायचं आणि शी येताच संडासात जायचं."

शारदाने होकारार्थी मान हलवली. 

"दुसरं रोज सकाळी 15 मिनिट तरी व्यायाम करायचा."

"सकाळी... "

"हो. काही प्रॉब्लेम आहे का? तुझे मिस्टर बसले आहेत ना बाहेर. बोलाव त्यांना."

"नको मी लक्ष देईल माझ्याकडे. खरं पाहता मीच गुन्हेगार आहे माझी. मीच दुर्लक्ष केलं स्वतः कडे. स्वतःला नेहमी शेवटी ठेवलं. आता मी तुम्ही सांगितलं तसं सगळं करेल."

"गुड ! घरातील स्त्री ठीक तर सगळं घर ठीक. आठ दिवसांनी ये." डॉक्टर स्मित करून म्हणाली. 

मी कितीतरी आया बायांना म्हणतांना ऐकलंय, "शी ला जायला फुरसत नाही मला." त्या सर्वांसाठी हा लेख आहे. मला माहित आहे आपल्याला खूप कामं असतात सकाळी पण पाच मिनिट आपण आपल्यासाठी काढूच शकतो ना. आपण स्त्रिया खरंच किती दुर्लक्ष करतो स्वतः कडे. घरातल्या सगळ्यांना वेळेवर नाश्ता करायला सांगतो, त्यांच्या हातात देतो आणि स्वतः मात्र तशाच राहतो अन रडतोही की कोणी मला खाल्लं का असं विचारातही नाही. 10 मिनिट बसून योगा करणंही आपल्याला उगी वाटतं. का? मला वाटतं आपण बदलू तेव्हाच इतरांचा आपल्याकडे पाहण्याचा दृष्टीकोन बदलेल. 

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©®अर्चना सोनाग्रे वसतकार

Master of labour studies 

Master diploma of counseling in mental health

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LRR part 2 Destiny

Love, revenge & relationship part 1 read here

LRR - Love, revenge & relationship 

Ram :- Aarchee was so unstable. She wanted to do every thing. She wanted to be a singer, a writer, a lawyer & sometimes She wanted to only travel all over the world. But no proper planning for anything. No idea of how to earn money and no thought that who will pay the Travelling expenses. There was no particular aim. Its stupidity and that's why I thought she is stupid , who is waiting for a guy , who's ATM she will use to live. She was a drama queen also. I saw her dramebaji with Meera at our home. That time I was wanted an ambitious girl who have some aim for life. Who set goals & then go ahead to achieve those goals. Who is independent. Who is studious like me. Who doesn't waste a minute of time and now when I have gotten Shruti, an IT Engineer in Infosys pune, with high salary package, who have high goals for life. A perfect life partner for me. I want to live with Archee. I was stupid or now I have became stupid by living with Archee? Don't know what game destiny is playing with me? 

Aarchee :- I had Made my mind to marry with Jivan. But somewhere I was feeling guilty that I am hiding the truth from him. I thought, I should tell him that he is not my first choice to marry. My first choice is Ram. But you have won my parents heart and so I promise you from now I am only yours for life time. I was aware that its not that easy to understand but I had find out Jivan so much understanding and gentle . So I thought he will forget this and try to make place in my heart . But my destiny had other plans for me. I had seen Jivan's brighter side. Destiny wanted to show me his dark side.

Ram : It was all done. I was happy. There was only three months remain for my marriage with Shruti And that rainy day when I was going bangalore from Anantapur after attending a colleagues marriage ceremony, I found a girl on the side of highway. Shrutee has called me for something. To speak with her I stop the car besides of highway. The girl was unconscious. First of all a doubting thought come in my mind that it can be a trap also. Because there were no one looking so far. That was deserted highway. So I moved my car. But after going 1 km away I thought I shouldn't leave an unconscious girl on highway. And if there is not any trap then she must be there. She was still there. I was not sure to about next. There was only one thing in my mind that some one is in danger and I have to help. I went to her and removed her hair from her face. I was shocked. I blinked my eyes 2-3 times and saw again neatly. She was Aarchee! Aarchee, my dear sister Meera' best friend. What make her to lay on highway?

LOVE, REVENGE & RELATIONSHIP 1 the questions

Love, revenge & relationship 

Part - 1

The questions 

Ram :- I never thought that one day I will love a girl whom I was used to call a stupid. Who was my sisters best friend and stayed at our home for every weekend, don't know for what purpose. Because most of the time I saw them only doing chit chat & watching TV or eating delicious food made by my dear mom rather than doing study. I never notice anything attractive in her. And now I have become crazy for her. Feeling a gravity force which is dragging me to her. I have stuck to her. It seems impossible to separate from her. Because now I got that she is too good at heart, lovely & innocent. But too calm. Don't know why I am feeling so much change in her behaviour. No liveliness, no wildness as before. Just a living flesh. I want to know the reason behind this change. But from whom? She doesn't speak a word. I am feeling helpless. Is she cares about it? 

Aarchee :- Yes! its been 2 month that I am living with Ram and never said a word. Even better that I have become dumb and duff after loosing my family and friendship. Which was my world in good time as well as in bad time and now no one is with me. So there is nothing to say or share with Ram. Everything is plain. No present no future. What I tell him? from where I should start? How I show him the hell of my life? Sometimes I feel that I am getting hallucinations. I have became mentally ill. There is nothing remained in life to live for. My parents are suffering their life because of me & I am here living with ram a comfortable life. I am so much selfish, a coward. A dull girl. Only these things about me I can tell Ram. Will he understand it? 

Ram :- I want Aarchee in my future as my companion for life time. After all there is no difference in our relation and an husband wife's relation. One can say that we are live in relationship. Though both of us never mention that because we are just living  with each other without any hope. Except one hope from my side , that Archee will accept my marriage proposal. Is she will accept? Okay If she accepts my proposal what I will tell my parents? How Meera will react? & Shrutee? I have forgotten her. Is she will forgive me? After all I am her fiancé. Just 3 months before our engagement ceremony has happened with huge celebration. & now I want to break it for the sake of Archee.🙇 Is she understand this? 

Aarchee :- Marriage ! Every parent has a dream to see their children happily married. My parents had one and so they choose Jivan for me. Calm, good looking, simple with good earning more than enough for family requirement. There was no chance to say no to him. Though my first choice was Ram but he was just a dream for me. Getting married with Ram is impossible for me. Because his own sister and my best friend , Meera has told me that Ram will never accept me as his life partner. As there were so many differences among us. She was right somewhere, because we were really different.

He was calm and I was loud,
He was so studious and I was far from study,
He used to play with machines and I used to play with words.
He was a kingfisher and I was songbird.
More on , 

He was stable as sea and I was a moving river.

But then why we mate & hooked up with eachother?

May be 

We mate because, after all, river moves to meet the sea

& in the end she (river ) meets the sea !

Is it really? 

There are lots of questions & very few answers. 

Continue.... 

©®Archana Sonagre Wasatkar

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My book - LOVE, REVENGE & RELATIONSHIP

to read part 1of love revenge & relationship click here

Hi friends. I am Archana. Before 6-7 years there were lots of stories born in my mind to write novel. One of them is 'LOVE, REVENGE & RELATIONSHIP'. I wrote  20 parts of it on my blog miarchanasonagre.blogspot.com Then I got busy with some other things like job, family & couldn't write further story. In lockdown time I read those 20 parts & found the story beautiful. So I have decided to write the story / novel again with proper ending.😊  

The story is about a 24yr old young wonderful, wild & lovely girl. Who is engaged with a charming 27yr old guy. Soon they are going to marry. But before the wedding ceremony take places some unbelievable incident happened & the young women's life turns to an unpleasant dream. She losses everything....... & live a life of trash. Why, what & how?

 To know the answer's please stay tune with me. Follow me. 😇
Hope you will enjoy reading this novel. You Will understand how destiny ruined our life to fulfill our dreams. Falling love with the main lead Archee & Ram. & hate the villain too. Also if you like the story please do like & share it with your friends.